hit by a bullet train

today is a very depressing day
life is shit up-side down thanks to the results
results were not i expected, maybe i expect too much OR NOT
i FAILED chinese TERRIBLY, i guess that is my ultimate morale booster for this monday's O'level paper
no is NOT OKAY, no there is NO MORE TIME, it is TOO LATE, a MIRACLE WON'T HAPPEN
don't try to console me, don't try to motivate me
how do you expect to improve my grade from a F9 to a B4?
if i am able to achieve that, i will write a book and f!@# it
GOD, HOW?!